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Celebrating Living

Today is another milestone for me on my sober journey: 22 months Getting sober at first is all about just not picking up a drink one day at a time. Staying sober has nothing to do with drinking at all. Staying sober is about being your most authentic self and healing the brokenness that brought you to drink in the first place. Am I in a constant blissful state now? hell no I’m not. But alcohol didn’t serve that blissfulness to me either in fact alcohol did nothing but serve my anxiety, depression, and lack of self-care and self-worth. This journey of sobriety is more about loving myself enough to not need a drink. It’s about setting boundaries with myself and others so I can be the person this universe needs me to be. Sobriety has been a blessing even when the days are hard. Sobriety doesn’t guarantee no more bad days but it does promise you will come out on the other side stronger. Here’s to loving, growing, and healing one day at a time.

Burn the Mother Effin' Ships

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4/18/2021 - Today is a very special day for me. One year ago today I started my sober journey. I am humbly grateful for this second-chance at life opportunity. I got to such a dark place of depression and anxiety (fueled by alcohol I know now!!) that I wasn't sure I would ever get my shit together. On the outside everything looked fine. But I was dying on the inside. I remember my last drink(s) well. It was a Friday afternoon and I started my favorite thing at the time - day drinking.  I have actually been on this journey for much longer than a year. I've struggled with my drinking for about 15 years. For 15 years I have "tried" to quit drinking. I had some stretches of sobriety but I always relapsed. Probably because I was going at it all wrong, in all those scenarios I was nothing more than a dry drunk. I was only focusing on not drinking and feeling sorry for myself that I was an "alcoholic". It felt unfair and it pissed me off. So I kept trying to modera...