Burn the Mother Effin' Ships
4/18/2021 - Today is a very special day for me. One year ago today I started my sober journey. I am humbly grateful for this second-chance at life opportunity. I got to such a dark place of depression and anxiety (fueled by alcohol I know now!!) that I wasn't sure I would ever get my shit together. On the outside everything looked fine. But I was dying on the inside. I remember my last drink(s) well. It was a Friday afternoon and I started my favorite thing at the time - day drinking. I have actually been on this journey for much longer than a year. I've struggled with my drinking for about 15 years. For 15 years I have "tried" to quit drinking. I had some stretches of sobriety but I always relapsed. Probably because I was going at it all wrong, in all those scenarios I was nothing more than a dry drunk. I was only focusing on not drinking and feeling sorry for myself that I was an "alcoholic". It felt unfair and it pissed me off. So I kept trying to modera...